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Having Such A Son (2)
T/N: Translated by Jen on Broken Jinsei! Please do not repost my translations! All translations outside of Broken Jinsei are stolen and reposted without permission!
For a ruler that was already accustomed to acting as he pleased, with no one daring to disobey, even if at certain times, clearly knowing that one shouldn’t act as such, he still might not be able to control himself. And Jing Wan, in her bones, was just a strong-willed one, amendable to coaxing but not coercion. If Li Hong Yuan had really used a forceful attitude to possess her, and not gently breaking through to her heart first, Jing Wan undoubtedly would’ve resisted. And her resistance naturally will further provoke his brutality causing his methods and attitude to become even more severe. That’s why, that was just a vicious cycle. When that time comes, how would it just be a tragedy. It would absolutely be a tragedy among tragedies.
Looking at the current developments, his obsession and attachment didn’t get erased because of fulfilling his wish, instead growing even deeper. It can be said that there wasn’t the deepest, only even deeper. His illness probably even the most outstanding psychologist won’t be able to cure.
As one would ask, for this kind of man, how great were the odds of him having a change of heart?
Jing Wan didn’t know what he’d thought of again, his gaze somewhat off. Don’t know what kind of thing made him have such a big reaction, making someone as strong as him all get trapped within, painfully struggling. But, Jing Wan won’t forget the cause that brought about this. In the end, it was still that infertility powder. In this moment, Jing Wan similarly hated Noble Consort Su-shi to death, hating that she can’t have her cut into a thousand pieces. Jing Wan leaned in, kissing the corner of his lips, lightly calling out ‘Ah Yuan’, again and again, not stopping to rest.
Li Hong Yuan’s gaze once again became clear, following Jing Wan’s movements, returning her kiss, not carrying any lust, just having the joy of regaining what was lost. As long as she was still alive, as long as she was by his side, this was more than enough.
At least, in this very moment, all that Li Hong Yuan wanted was just this little.
“Wan Wan will always stay by my side and won’t go anywhere, right?”
Jing Wan held him, “Right, I will always be by your side, accompanying in life and death, neither leaving nor abandoning.”
“Then, let’s not have children, alright? Just the two of us forever.” Li Hong Yuan leaned against Jing Wan’s shoulder, tilting his head.
Jing Wan instantly panicked, “Ah Yuan, what do you mean by this? Did you get poisoned with the infertility powder, just, because of not wanting me to worry, thus lied, saying you didn’t? Don’t worry, didn’t the old doctor say that there’s still a possibility. Moreover, once Gong Jiu’s medical skills improve a step further, perhaps he’ll be able to cure the infertility powder. Ah Yuan, perhaps……….”
“Wan Wan……..” Li Hong Yuan was somewhat amused. His wife’s thoughts had clearly gone astray.
This actually can’t be blamed on Jing Wan either. Her husband was genuinely a man born under a feudalistic society, and he was even a qinwang, and in the future, might even become the emperor. Towards having an heir, it should be greatly valuing. That’s why, she simply never considered the possibility that he really didn’t want children.
“Don’t panic, listen to me, it has nothing to do with the infertility powder. The old traveling doctor had taken my pulse, my body is perfectly fine. Not wanting children is because I’m worried about your body suffering the burden. When that Zhou something Shuang gave birth, I already had similar thoughts. Besides, I don’t want someone to come and divide away your attention. I wish for your attention to be mine from beginning to end, understand?”
The time had ultimately been a bit long, but because of recalling his past life’s son, that blurry face actually gradually became clear. That brat didn’t really resemble him very much. Although just a ten some year old young boy, he similarly was tall and handsome. That face didn’t reach his level, yet it still surpassed many people’s, but the subtle features mostly followed after Jing Wan, especially when smiling, giving people a very warm feeling. However, Li Hong Yuan didn’t have the hobby of looking for the shadow of his true love through his son. That’s why, being like his old man, and loving the house and its crow, and whatnot, was purely nonsense. Not liking this son was still not liking.
Just, Li Hong Yuan felt that if able to meet that brat, Wan Wan perhaps would like very much. After all, from Wan Wan’s attitude towards those younger brothers and sisters, as well as nieces and nephews of the Luo family, one should know, she actually quite liked children, let alone her own flesh and blood.
It’s said that after women have children, they won’t have much thought put on their husbands anymore. Just thinking about it was unbearable.
Jing Wan didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. She really didn’t know what to say about this man. There wasn’t even a shadow of a child, yet he was already getting jealous first? Perhaps, she really shouldn’t have viewed him the same as the men at present. At least, there weren’t any this way like him.
TN: All translations outside of Broken Jinsei are stolen and reposted without permission!
“You can’t lack an heir, especially when you’re preparing to sit upon that position.” Jing Wan said in a practical manner, “Without an heir, everything you’re doing now will all become someone else’s, perhaps even your enemy’s.”
In her past life, creating a wealthy family business, regardless of whether or not one had descendants, it all can be donated to charity, helping those that need help. But, it wasn’t the same at present, where there was an emphasis on family, emphasizing the clan. Regardless of how much wealth, without a successor, it will all be divided by those so called clansmen, even doing so rightfully. Moreover, the greater their power, the more they will obtain. Those that truly need it won’t even receive a single copper coin, let alone those unrelated outsiders.
Everything that one worked hard to obtain, in the end, even falling into one’s enemy’s hands, that was the most tragic.
“Ah Yuan, children are the continuation of our life, the best witness to our love. If you don’t like children running around before your eyes, we can have them placed a bit farther away?” Thinking of it like this, this was practically just the typical case of birthing but not raising. The child didn’t even exist, yet already prepared to become neglectful parents? This clearly was the type of people that she very much disliked, but a certain someone’s possessiveness was too strong, what to do? Could it be that they really won’t have children? Everything else aside, her grandmother will certainly nag her to death. “This seemingly isn’t too good. The child certainly will be sad.”
“Wan Wan, for you to already be considering this now, how do you expect me to look forward to this child’s arrival.”
Although these words were said very lightly, Jing Wan didn’t feel relaxed at all. She really suspects that if their future child clings to her, what kind of outcome will that be? That wasn’t his child, but rather his enemy.
“Ah Yuan, let’s not talk about this now. In any case, in the current state of affairs, it’s indeed not suitable to have a child. Once everything settles, let’s just let nature take its course, alright?” It was better to quickly halt this increasingly dangerous topic. Jing Wan really was scared of having the clearly emotionally unstable person provoked too much at this time, and afterwards, firmly decide on refusing the child’s arrival.
Li Hong Yuan momentarily fell silent, and nonchalantly nodded.
Jing Wan turned her body, and sat kneeling behind Li Hong Yuan, reaching out to gently massage his temples.
Li Hong Yuan closed his eyes, striving to suppress the negative emotions in his heart.
Jing Wan faintly sensed this, softly speaking to him as she massaged him, having his attention drawn over.
In reality, Jing Wan’s method indeed had quite the effect. Although Li Hong Yuan rarely replied, he nevertheless was conscientiously listening the whole time. The her that was still alive ultimately overshadowed the ‘deceased’ her.
When he once again opened his eyes, Jing Wan lightly smiled. Seems he has recovered.
Li Hong Yuan grasped Jing Wan’s hand, having her pulled before him, locking into his arms. He didn’t do anything else either, purely just hugging like that, making one produce the feeling of time slowing down in tranquility.
In the time when the two were together, no one came to disturb. Even the servant girls never once came to change the tea.
“Ah Yuan, let’s go to the horse tracks to race horses?” Jing Wan nested in his arms as she said with a smile.
“Race horses? Race with me, or ride together?”
“Wasn’t it said that the horse tracks have long been built already? We ultimately need to personally examine it once, no?”
“Personally examine? Wan Wan wants to personally go for a run?” Li Hong Yuan lifted his brow.
“Ah Yuan’s riding skills are placed there, so of course it’s you going. I’ll just watch from the side. As long as Ah Yuan feels it’s not bad, then it’ll be considered passing, no? Once determined that it’s up to standard, we’ll just hold a horse race. En, let’s arrange it after your birthday. What does Ah Yuan think?”
“Alright.” What his wife said, there was nothing not doable.
Just, if they are really going to arrange this horse race, then they’ll need to make preparations and can’t push back for too long, because after the middle third of the fourth lunar month, the northwest borders will probably be in a state of emergency. Compared to that battle previously at the northeast borders, that was the difference between the main course and the appetizer.
In his past life, Wu’an Marquis Manor’s destruction, and Jing Wan’s tragedy, all started from this moment.
However, speaking of this, Li Hong Yuan became gloomy again, because after Jing Wan’s sixteenth birthday, she seemingly should’ve gotten married to Fu Yun Ting, just Fu Yun Ting’s uncle, the current Wu’an Marquis, just happened to die at this point in time. Jing Wan had married over during the Wu’an Marquis’s mourning period. Clearly they could’ve used it as an excuse to have the marriage pushed down, but why didn’t the Luo family?
Li Hong Yuan has never believed that Luo old fox did it out of righteousness and virtue. Moreover, Luo Old Madam loved Jing Wan that much, so how could she bear? Although Luo Pei Shan wasn’t the Head Minister of Appointments, he was still the Head Minister of Rites. If he wants to prevent, it wasn’t impossible. That’s why, this matter was certainly fishy.
However, at present, even if the Wu’an Marquis was still paralyzed, he was still perfectly alive, even better than the past few years. And for Fu Yun Ting who had already married two years ago, his son was almost one year old. He had ordered people to pay attention to the Wu’an Marquis Manor, but they simply didn’t discover anything out of place. Li Hong Yuan suspect that because things were greatly different, some things perhaps won’t happen again.
If this really is the case, then he probably won’t be able to find the reason why Jing Wan was forced to marry.
However, why did his old man insist on exterminating the Wu’an Marquis Manor, not even hesitating to sacrifice the lives of two hundred thousand soldiers in the process. The cause of this, he certainly will be able to find. If not for losing these two hundred plus thousand soldiers, if not for the several thousands of losses in the northwest, then in his past life, at the start of the war with the various countries, he wouldn’t have been in that sorry of a state.
Some people ultimately need to pay the price for what they’ve done.
“This is thinking of something again?” Jing Wan was helpless, “You, as a grown man, can’t you be a bit more open-minded? What’s the point of always immersing in the past? If you keep being like this, I’ll also eat vinegar and be angry.”
However, Jing Wan was clear, to be able to make him ‘constantly think of’, it absolutely won’t be a small matter. It was probably something that no matter who, all would be unable to easily put down. Just, Jing Wan didn’t know the facts, not knowing how to console him, so could only say it as such.
“We already agreed on horse racing, if you keep being absent-minded, I really won’t let you off, do you hear me?” Jing Wan lightly tugged his ear.
“En, I hear you, won’t get distracted again.”
Jing Wan, in essence, wanted to let Li Hong Yuan properly vent his feelings. Although he suppressed it, it ultimately was bottled inside. This definitely was more harm than good. And Li Hong Yuan obviously understood Jing Wan’s intentions as well, so naturally accepted.
Carrying this kind of tacit understanding, Li Hong Yuan really did nicely run around, thoroughly showing off in front of his wife.
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I love him, but this possessiveness even towards children is probably what I dislike the most about him, haha.
He’s the type to grumble about it but in reality never actually do anything, even contradicting himself sometimes, which is quite funny. Kinda like how he lets her spend time with her family while he just sulks. Although in modern times, he would definitely get surgery to not hav kids.
Honestly, i feel like if they had a daughter that was basically a mini Jing Wan he would be troubled because he’d want to spoil the daughter rotten but wouldnt want to give up time spoiling Jing Wan.
As for a son? once he’s old enough, probably toss to tutors and hidden guards for training XD
He would actually raise his daughter into a female emperor, he’s quite progressive on this front.
The tragic past life of our friendly neighborhood tyrant….tsk tsk tsk.
Technically this part is more Jing Wan’s tragic past than his.