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Exchanging Feelings or Becoming Enemies? (1)
T/N: Translated by Jen on Broken Jinsei! Please do not repost my translations! All translations outside of Broken Jinsei are stolen and reposted without permission!
This astonishment, however, didn’t last for very long, seemingly just passing in a flicker, “Gentleman Sun.” Jing Wan opened her mouth.
“Luo Wangfei.” Sun Yi Lin paused. Certain words seemingly circled around his tongue before finally letting out such an address. Reasonably speaking, this address didn’t have any problems, but coming from Sun Yi Lin’s mouth, it seemingly just completely changed in flavor, a bit indifferent, yet also seemingly a bit unwilling to accept.
Jing Wan’s gaze was still on his face, exceptionally open, not having any emotional fluctuations inside. However, she was more or less a bit curious. She knew that his face was injured because of a fire, the burn ruining his appearance, but at the time, when encountering during the Ding Duchess’s funeral, his face was still wrapped in white bandages, appearing not as serious as now. Looking at this situation, it was not treating properly and severely worsening?
It wasn’t Sun Yi Lin’s first time facing people while carrying such a face. Towards other people’s gaze, he can completely ignore. However, when this person was Jing Wan, he still felt unsightly, having the urge to hide, wanting to cover up. Even though he was doing his best to conceal, some things can’t be concealed just because one wanted to conceal. Especially when in front of the person one cares about, one will always have an air of uneasiness. That bit of awkwardness, regardless whether it was the former noble like the clear moon Gentleman Sun, or the later unpredictable Sun Yi Lin that had greatly changed in temperament, it all wasn’t the least bit in character. Not coming to meet Jing Wan first thing, how was it not having this factor inside.
However, when meeting, summoning the courage to face, compared to Jing Wan, Sun Yi Lin’s line of sight just appeared a bit unbridled, moving inch by inch over Jing Wan’s body. Seemingly the former noble young master that abided by etiquette and was rather respectful towards women, it was all just a facade he used to fool people, and the current him was actually his true self.
However, these things, Jing Wan didn’t really mind that much. It was just gazes and not sharp blades, not like she will lose a piece of flesh, thus not cowering in the slightest. However, Sun Yi Lin’s feelings, for her———he was actually just a passing guest in her life, really not holding much weight. If not for the fact that he was Sun Yi Jia’s closest older brother, and if not for her own husband, that super vinegar jar, constantly thinking of him, Jing Wan afraid would’ve already had him forgotten.
Jing Wan recalled, her marriage arrangement with Sun Yi Lin was even spoiled by a certain someone, but she didn’t feel any guilt, because she believed that between Sun Yi Lin and her, even if not having anyone else involved, it most likely will still fall through. As such, she didn’t feel she was sorry to the other party. Just, aside from those that were always in the center of attention, getting stared at like this, more or less will make one displeased.
Previously, she’d even thought that Sun Yi Lin already had her placed down, and she herself was indifferent from beginning to end, just feeling quite happy that her husband finally won’t use him to make a fuss again. But, looking at it now, this simply wasn’t the case.
This absolutely wasn’t narcissism, but rather Sun Yi Lin being too obvious, unable to even pretend to not know.
Towards this kind of situation, Jing Wan actually didn’t really approve of. After all, it was just one-sided unrequited longing, and not mutual love. To be stuck within, unable to free oneself, this, in Jing Wan’s view, was actually very hard to comprehend. Perhaps, it was because of her personality. It was impossible for her to fall in love with someone first. And the interactions between them were very limited, so exactly how did the other party develop deep feelings for her? Towards this bit, Jing Wan felt extremely baffled.
And to become unscrupulous because of not obtaining, in Jing Wan’s view, was practically unreasonable. And to produce hate because of love, harming others in the process, it further made one very much despise. After all, others didn’t owe you anything.
Of course, prior to understanding the situation, Jing Wan won’t rashly come to a conclusion either. The things Sun Yi Lin was doing now may not necessarily be related to her. Jing Wan believed that her mental disposition wasn’t to the point where she would have everything pushed onto herself. And even if it was really related to her, she expressed that this pot, she also won’t shoulder. If just canceling the engagement was able to have him corrupted as such, then one can’t help but suspect that Sun Yi Lin’s temperament was actually just three years old, or perhaps that kind of severe eighth-grader syndrome. Just like, as long as it was something that didn’t go his way, he will just want to destroy the world.
Sun Yi Lin’s gaze in the end landed on Jing Wan’s stomach, carrying a bit of an indescribable gloominess.
Jing Wan just now was able to be lofty and unmoved, yet this while, she couldn’t help but move her body, placing her hand over her lower abdomen, her defensive stance truly too obvious.
Sun Yi Lin took it in, silently retracting his gaze, concealing his attitude. Towards Jing Wan’s action, he didn’t say anything either. As for what he was thinking inside, one was unable to find out.
“Are you well?” Perhaps having adjusted his state of mind, Sun Yi Lin became a lot gentler, the negative emotions seemingly all dissipating. Just, he still deliberately left out the address.
“Many thanks for Gentleman Sun’s concern, I’m quite well.” This wasn’t just pleasantries. Jing Wan right now was indeed pretty good.
TN: All translations outside of Broken Jinsei are stolen and reposted without permission!
Sun Yi Lin sat down beside Jing Wan, “That’s good. If you need anything, just say it.”
“Is that so? I thought that as a hostage, I should have the awareness of a hostage.” If the treatment is too good, then it will make one produce the misconception that one was an honored guest. And if the circumstances afterwards become worse, perhaps one will feel a disparity inside. This wasn’t good.
Sun Yi Lin momentarily fell silent, “You’re currently pregnant. No matter what request you have, it all won’t be too much.” He then paused, “Even if not under special circumstances, at any time, you also deserve the best.”
“Gentleman Sun, you are born from an illustrious family, so presumably, you should be more clear than anyone of the rules and etiquette. You have overstepped.”
Sun Yi Lin fell silent, and a moment later, tugged the corner of his mouth, sinister and gloomy, “Rules? It’s precisely because I abided by the rules too much, thus got schemed against, my wife stolen.”
Jing Wan’s heart slightly jumped. Sun Yi Lin already learned of everything? It shouldn’t be too possible, right? “Gentleman Sun, what is the meaning of this?” This conversation, it was best to stop, but Jing Wan right now needed more information. The more she knew, perhaps the more beneficial it will be later. That’s why, it was best to go along his words and slowly dig out information.
“What’s the meaning?” Sun Yi Lin for a time thought that Li Hong Yuan wasn’t good to Jing Wan. That kind of a man that possessed a high status, on the surface, appeared to not have any power, yet when doing things, he was very willful, not having any misgivings. Compared to those that held power, don’t know how much more carefree. Not having power, yet possessing imperial favor, that was just his greatest asset. Without power, the emperor just favored him even more. Without power, he didn’t have any shackles. That kind of person certainly will be self-centered and won’t consider other people’s feelings. Furthermore, he was even lustful. Whoever becomes his wangfei will all be destined to be neglected and wronged. But, the reality was inconsistent with what he’d thought. In the past, he didn’t believe, unwilling to believe, stubbornly thinking that if not him, then no one can give her happiness, but the reality?
“Indeed, what Li Hong Yuan has done, how could he possibly tell you. Wasn’t that just having his despicable, shameless, and filthy side all exposed. Even if someone shameless, sometimes will still pay attention to their own image.”
“Gentleman Sun, to criticize our wangye as such behind his back is unbefitting of a nobleman.”
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What a book will you translate next? This is almost over.
There’s still the after stories which are all very long, so it’ll still take a while.
Oh, you can’t miss the after stories. Definitely must-reads! 🙏🏽
Why did both of Jing Wan’s exes turn into such trash lol? One is a traitor, potentially a creep too, and the other one is a serial rapist.
And her husband is a certified yandere. I think the only guy without issue (seemingly) is the husband from her previous life, Fu something of other. 😅
Fu Tianlei is so bland without any fault that i completely forgot about him lol.
Who is this Fu Tianlei, I only know of a Fu Yun Ting here 😂