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This Kind of Mother
T/N: Translated by Jen on Broken Jinsei! Please do not repost my translations! All translations outside of Broken Jinsei are stolen and reposted without permission!
This face of Shu Consort Qin’s, Li Hong Yuan naturally was familiar with. However, at this very moment, she appeared like a completely different person.
Carefully thinking it over, it was also just on his deathbed in his past life that he’d seen his birth mother in person, and moreover, had only recalled just now. Speaking of which, she indeed didn’t raise him, seemingly never once fulfilling her duties as a mother. However, in the past life, unbeknownst to him, she had used a special way to accompany by his side for many years, and in the end, used her own existence as the price to grant his wish.
What he changed wasn’t just his own fate, but also that of many others. The people that originally should’ve died were now still alive. If these all require equivalent exchange, then who should it be counted on? If she really was someone loved by the heavens, then she originally should’ve returned to the cycle of reincarnation to go experience her next perfect life. Right, since she was someone loved by the heavens, then there was no reason for her to be tormented life after life. In this lifetime, for her to have married Le Cheng Emperor, that kind of man, causing her to suffer a short and unfortunate life, it was probably a mistake occurring somewhere.
In his past life, if someone were to tell him about the cycle of karma and reincarnation, he completely wouldn’t have believed. But, after having that kind of experience, it was very difficult to not believe, although his conduct would still be wanton and unbridled. The things that he should do, he won’t hesitate in the slightest, and when it comes to killing certain people, he also won’t be lenient in the slightest.
However, now, even if knowing the cause of his rebirth, and even if there was still someone that can have everything ‘pushed back on the right path’, he won’t agree to it either!
Exactly what Li Hong Yuan was obsessed with like a curse, no one was more clear than him. If from the start, he just knew that his birth mother was special, then he probably would’ve done everything he can to achieve his goal, regardless of how many people it would betray, regardless of how many people would be sacrificed, he all won’t hesitate.
What the Imperial Noble Consort did was nothing more than letting what was originally no feelings at all become ‘unable to ignore her existence’. Perhaps, he had the desire to preserve her, and if not, then at least it was considering sending her back into the cycle of reincarnation. He also knew, this possibility wasn’t big, but he further believed that matters depended on human effort. If it absolutely needs for certain people to come exchange, then aside from those that can’t be touched, no matter how many, he all won’t mind. It’s not that he cared about this birth mother that much, but compared to those unrelated people, it naturally didn’t matter.
The Imperial Noble Consort didn’t know why her son would suddenly fall silent. She kept feeling that she was becoming more and more weak, seemingly like being able to control this body once, her soul all suffered enormous drainage. However, being able to see her son, and even properly say a few words to him, even if she were to immediately disappear, she would still be happily willing.
As such, it was best to rest, but she still wanted to look at her Yuan’er more, because she wasn’t sure whether or not there will be a next time. That’s why, she forcibly endured, quietly lying there without moving as much as possible. Her throat felt like there were little bugs crawling inside. To want to endure and not cough definitely was a very exhausting thing.
However, how could this possibly escape Li Hong Yuan’s eyes. It goes without saying, based on the years one had actually experienced through, even if adding on the ten some years that the Imperial Noble Consort lived through in Shu Consort Qin’s body, it was still nothing more than thirty some years. Moreover, the things she has experienced weren’t really considered anything, and a person’s experience wasn’t calculated based on time either. So, the Imperial Noble Consort this while, in many areas, afraid can’t even compare to Jing Wan. With that bit of ‘small tricks’, to want to hide from Li Hong Yuan, that was purely a fantasy.
(T/N: The Imperial Noble Consort died when she was like in her early twenties. LHY is only counting the years that she has consciously experienced, so not counting the ten years where her soul was unconscious after her death.)
Li Hong Yuan got up, pouring a cup of water for her, placing on the small table by her hand before withdrawing back again.
The Imperial Noble Consort blanked. Although this son’s expression didn’t change, his attitude strangely softened. Although she was puzzled, she was nevertheless extremely happy inside. Her hand somewhat shakily picked up the cup. Clearly it was just a cup of plain water, yet she felt it was exceptionally sweet, and that there was nothing more sweet than this. As such, she drank it little by little, particularly cherishing.
Seeing her like this, Li Hong Yuan slightly furrowed his brows. He really couldn’t understand. It was merely a cup of water, so was there a need to be like this?
That’s why, someone like Li Hong Yuan probably forever won’t be able to understand a true mother’s feelings. They really will unconditionally devote everything to their child with no complaints or regrets, and their child, even if just doing a bit of something, they would all feel exceptionally happy and satisfied, even more so given their current situation.
When the Imperial Noble Consort finally finished drinking the water, Li Hong Yuan finally opened his mouth again, “Possession, this kind of thing, don’t be so stupid as to let others easily detect. This kind of thing, if others were to find out, you should know what kind of consequences there will be.”
Even though Li Hong Yuan’s words were very harsh, the Imperial Noble Consort nevertheless particularly enjoyed inside. Her son was being concerned for her, no? “Yuan’er, don’t worry, consort…………mother only momentarily lost control of one’s emotions because of seeing you, thus revealing some signs. Towards other people, it absolutely won’t be like this. After all, consort mother has been with younger sister Qin for more than ten years, her speech and conduct, there’s no one that’s more clear than consort mother.”
TN: All translations outside of Broken Jinsei are stolen and reposted without permission!
At first, when addressing herself as consort mother, the Imperial Noble Consort was still somewhat hesitant, but seeing Li Hong Yuan not have any reactions, it just became increasingly smooth. “Speaking of which, it’s also my son that’s keen and bright. Switched with others, how can they because of this bit of abnormality just produce this kind of suspicion?”
Li Hong Yuan didn’t speak. If not for having gone through an unusual experience, he naturally wouldn’t have easily thought of this bit either. It had nothing to do with being keen or bright.
“Carefully recuperate, this son will take one’s leave first.” Towards the people of the imperial harem, aside from Noble Consort Su, the others, he all didn’t have any connection with. Staying too long in Ganlu Palace certainly won’t be good. Originally, after ‘Shu Consort Qin’ woke up, to not meet anyone else, yet insisted on meeting them, this already made people suspicious.
Although he didn’t address her as consort mother, his change in his self-address still made the Imperial Noble Consort happy. At this time, although she was reluctant to part with him, she also understood the weight of the situation. Else, Shu Consort Qin at present wouldn’t just be helping out a little only when needed, and at other times, unable to do anything else. Her son was special, and only by remaining isolate, staying far away, would he be able to better survive. Thinking to here, her heart once again ached to the extreme. It was all, all……………
“Yuan’er please wait, consort mother still has something to say.” The Imperial Noble Consort somewhat hesitated, but she worried that her son would be at a disadvantage and not be aware, “Regarding the Noble Consort, Su-shi, it’s not that consort mother wants to incite disharmony between you two, but Su-shi, this person……………”
“Consort mother………….” Li Hong Yuan neither lightly nor heavily interrupted her. Truthfully speaking, it was just an address, so he really didn’t mind that much. If it’s able to make this woman a bit happier, then it didn’t really matter. Not for anything else, but just for Wan Wan’s sake, he also didn’t mind doing a bit of something. “Yucui Palace’s matters, this son has propriety. What kind of person is Su-shi, this son is more clear than you. The things this son is doing, you also don’t need to worry about, and further don’t need to ask Shu Consort to do anything. You two just need to take care of yourselves.”
The meaning in Li Hong Yuan’s words, how could the Imperial Noble Consort still not understand. Regardless of what kind of motives Su-shi harbored, her son was all aware. Then, there really wasn’t anything to worry about. “Alright, alright, knowing that Yuan’er is fine, knowing that you’re much better off than imagined, consort mother doesn’t have anything to worry about anymore. Even if just dying at this moment………….look at consort mother becoming muddled from being overjoyed, consort mother is already dead to begin with. Now, consort mother doesn’t have anymore regrets.”
When the Imperial Noble Consort said these words, Li Hong Yuan clearly sensed her weakening a bit more. He unconsciously clenched his fist, his heart tightening. A person, when facing a desperate situation or death, if were to possess strong attachments, then all able to make one obtain even more strength. Presumably the soul was also the same, “No more regrets? Consort mother doesn’t want to see your own grandson? Even if unable to personally hold, how about having a look? You didn’t even see this son be born, and didn’t personally watch this son grow. Don’t you want to make up for it a little on your grandson?”
Upon hearing this, the Imperial Noble Consort’s eyes sure enough became a bit more spirited, “Prior to your wedding, younger sister Qin had actually sent people to privately investigate before. Your wife is a good one. You need to be good to her, other women…………….” The Imperial Noble Consort paused, “All in all, don’t let her down.”
She actually wanted to say, other women, it was better to not have. She was precisely a victim. Moreover, she had once obtained a promise of ‘a pair for a lifetime’. Similarly as a woman, she wasn’t the kind that hoped for others to also be unwell because she was unwell, and from within, obtain a sense of balance inside. If possible, she actually wished for every women in the world to all be able to be treated well.
(T/N: The one who made her that promise was Min Yu Han, and in a way, he still kept it by never marrying or falling in love again.)
Just, her son was ultimately an imperial prince, so the education and upbringing he received was just different from the start. The two of them didn’t have any emotional foundation before, and the Imperial Noble Consort also won’t because of her son’s acceptance of her, as well as his somewhat harmonious attitude, just believe that she had the right to interfere in his life. Moreover, her son was someone that might ascend the throne as emperor. The imperial harem really wasn’t that simple of an existence, and more importantly, her son was already twenty some. He had his own thoughts, and should take responsibility of his own matters. In her view, even as parents, it was best to just give guidance from the side, and not fully make the decision for the child.
“Right now, she’s still young, her bones still not completely grown out, so there’s no rush for a child. Moreover, with the current state of affairs, it’s also not suitable for you two to have children. Consort mother doesn’t mind waiting a few more years.” Her son right now was already twenty some. She was also quite anxious for a grandson, but some things, can’t be rushed.
Li Hong Yuan quietly stared at the Imperial Noble Consort. These words that his birth mother said, he actually was somewhat surprised. That blood related maternal grandfather of his, in the Pei clan, that kind of family clan, how was he able to raise such an ‘incompatible’ daughter that was the complete opposite of them? However, compared to Su-shi, Wan Wan and her genuine mother-in-law should be able to get along exceptionally harmoniously. Perhaps, as time goes on, this mother-in-law will just stand on the daughter-in-law’s side. “Wan Wan will like you very much.”
“Is that so? Then really is unfortunate, unable to talk with her.” However, what made the Imperial Noble Consort even happier was that her son seemingly really liked his wife very much. When mentioning her, his entire person would unconsciously soften.
“She has been angry for you not just once. You originally should’ve had a happy and wonderful life.”
“Really a silly child, how can life be completely perfect? However, if able to obtain, then one should cherish. Next time, when she says this, you can tell her, consort mother has you, this son. Everything else, actually all weren’t considered anything.”
Li Hong Yuan lowered his eyes, restraining all his emotions, “If there’s the opportunity, you can tell her yourself. Additionally, this son promised her, in this life, there won’t be a second woman.”
The Imperial Noble Consort’s heart violently shook, “Good, good, good………” As she said this, her tears just fell for some reason.
“This son will take one’s leave.”
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Thanks for the chapter 😢
This made me teary, LHY’s mother is the personification of what mother’s love… despite being dead, her soul still wanting to protect her son.
Noble Consort Shu and Imperial Noble Consort are good people. Their relationship is like true sisters.
You mean Shu Consort Qin?
Que madre tan increíble, LHY también es bendecido por tener una madre tan especial. Lloré mucho en este capítulo, por fin alguien que haga sentir algo LhY que solo JW
This is a good mum.
Lots of tears and smiles in this chapter.
I am curious to know if Imperial Noble Consort’s ghost will have an important role later, also it is kinda amazing Shu consort didn’t freak out when she knew she was possessed.
Uh uh uh. Ok this is one twist I DIDN’T expect. I did wonder why the jade didn’t play a role for ML’s mom and instead let ML return, I just brushed it off as a plot hole etc.
Boi am I wrong. It’s coz she chose to give it up for ML. If she had, instead, chosen to go back in time for herself, she could have lived a happy and different life where ML wouldn’t even have come into existence.
She is actually a pretty great mother.