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Exchanging Feelings or Becoming Enemies? (2)
T/N: Translated by Jen on Broken Jinsei! Please do not repost my translations! All translations outside of Broken Jinsei are stolen and reposted without permission!
Sun Yi Lin stared at Jing Wan, his gaze from beginning to end never once leaving. Speaking of which, with Jing Wan defending Li Hong Yuan as such, he more or less was a bit unhappy inside. However, standing in Jing Wan’s position, it’s not like he can’t understand. Just, recalling that if not for Li Hong Yuan inserting a foot, then the one Jing Wan would be defending now would be him, the gloominess in his heart grew even denser. “I once did act as a nobleman, yet what kind of outcome did I get? Right now, I very much regret. If at the time, I was despicable for once, believe that the outcome will be completely different. Something that I will regret for the rest of my life, once is enough.”
Jing Wan slightly frowned, feeling that the situation right now was a bit dangerous.
Sun Yi Lin reached out, seemingly wanting to smooth out her brows. Jing Wan subconsciously avoided. Sun Yi Lin wasn’t vexed either, conveniently placing down his hand, landing on the back of Jing Wan’s hand, grasping. When Jing Wan wanted to pull back, he subsequently increased his strength, letting Jing Wan unable to succeed. This was the person he liked. In the past, because of scrupulously abiding by etiquette, even when they were engaged, there all wasn’t any physical contact in the slightest. Right now, he seemingly got what he wanted, having a kind of strange excitement.
Jing Wan didn’t continue struggling with him, just thoroughly becoming cold, “Let go!”
“Jing Wan.” This address made the discontent in Sun Yi Lin’s heart disappear. However, it still wasn’t intimate enough, unable to be satisfied, “I won’t hurt you, and also don’t want to hurt you. Right now, what I want is also just this. That’s why, please don’t reject me, alright?”
“I’m a married woman, and even if unmarried, I still shouldn’t be treated this frivolously by you. You’re practically unreasonable.”
Grief flashed through Sun Yi Lin’s eyes, becoming cold on the surface, “Wan Wan, no matter what you say now, it all doesn’t matter. I’ve already decided to be despicable, no? And right now, I’m the blade, while you’re the fish on the cutting board. Everything else aside, just for the sake of the child in your stomach, you also shouldn’t do anything to provoke me, no?”
Jing Wan indeed didn’t resist, but that gaze nevertheless grew colder. If in the past, she still had a pretty good impression towards Sun Yi Lin, then right now, it thoroughly became negative.
How could Sun Yi Lin not know that this will make Jing Wan very much hate him, but he couldn’t control himself, because he knew that this perhaps was the last chance. He didn’t want to give up.
“Even if you hate me, it also doesn’t matter. We will have a lot of time in the future. Eventually it will let you gradually change your views towards me.”
“In the future? Your days in the future will probably be in hell.” Jing Wan mocked.
“Wan Wan, this is thinking that I won’t be able to beat him? Winning or losing, this bit, we can temporarily set aside. Wan Wan, do you know what Li Hong Yuan is doing right now? A beauty in arm, a fragrant warm soft jade, afraid already forgetting who you are. In this way, you still want to think of him?”
Jing Wan didn’t believe a single word of it. She believed that even if those people used some method to poison him with gu, he still won’t do anything sorry to her. Jing Wan in fact didn’t even have this kind of confidence towards herself. She has personally witnessed that man’s abilities, witnessing his unparalleled tenaciousness. She believed that as long as it was something he wanted to do, then there was nothing he can’t accomplish. This kind of mentality practically reached a blind level already.
Sun Yi Lin had burning jealousy inside. This was an emotion he wouldn’t have in the past. Why, why was a man like Li Hong Yuan able to obtain such faith from her? Treacherous and cunning, despicable and underhanded, having no one in his eyes, with nothing worth praising on him, even deceiving everyone in the world, yet he was able to obtain all the benefits.
“Looks like, to not let you personally see, you won’t believe. In that case, just wait and see. In reality, I didn’t want to let you see that kind of scene. As the wife, regardless of how much feelings one has towards one’s husband, seeing him being intimate with another woman, all won’t feel good. The deeper the feelings, the greater the pain.”
“As a noble family young master, to be able to have such an awareness, it really isn’t easy.” These words normally perhaps would be a praise, but at present, it was more so a mockery.
“It’s merely not wanting to use this kind of method to examine the depths of your feelings towards him.”
TN: All translations outside of Broken Jinsei are stolen and reposted without permission!
“In that case, you really don’t need to go verify. I can just tell you right now, I have promised him my heart, unchanging till death.”
Sun Yi Lin’s grip suddenly tightened, making Jing Wan feel the pain, yet her face was expressionless, not showing weakness in the slightest.
Sun Yi Lin’s expression became a bit deranged, “You originally should be mine, mine! If not for Li Hong Yuan obstructing from within, then it should be you and I together in harmony, from the blue skies above down to the yellow springs below, accompanying in life and death.”
Jing Wan was frightened and astonished. What made her like this wasn’t Sun Yi Lin’s words, but rather his face. That rugged and bumpy, originally like a normal scar, at this time, was like as if coming alive, having something squirming under the surface. Not only so, that scar was visibly expanding, even suspecting that it will eventually make the entire face all become that terrifying. “Your face…..”
Jing Wan couldn’t help but blurt out. The maddened Sun Yi Lin was like as if getting gripped by the throat, momentarily blanking. Shortly after, he seemingly came to his senses, hurriedly covering his face, “Don’t look, don’t look……” That movement really was just like certain disfigured women, like getting discovered the most unsightly side by someone, losing one’s head out of fear.
Jing Wan’s brows couldn’t help but furrow. Even a three year old child can all tell this wasn’t normal. Everything else aside, Sun Yi Lin in the beginning, did he really ruin his appearance because of a fire?
Unknown as to whether or not it was because his hand sensed the changes on his face, Sun Yi Lin suddenly got up, frantically fleeing from the carriage. That appearance, how sorry of a state.
Jing Wan’s brows furrowed even more. Right now, she was suspecting whether or not Sun Yi Lin was also being controlled by gu.
Of course, even if this really is the case, everything he did still can’t be forgiven.
Jing Wan sat in the horse carriage lost in thought. Outside, Hei Mei’s voice faintly sounded. She seemingly was arguing with someone. Jing Wan for the most part can think of the reason. After all, a ‘stranger’ came on to her carriage. As someone by her side, how could she be indifferent. Jing Wan didn’t do anything. Hei Mei right now perhaps will suffer some bad treatment, but if she were to overly pay attention, perhaps it will make her situation even worse.
Her treatment right now was because of Sun Yi Lin. The other people of unknown origins may not necessarily be willing to give her preferential treatment. That’s why, the one that will suffer will just be the people by her side, and Hei Mei was the only one.
Jing Wan slowly closed her eyes, concealing all her thoughts.
The horse carriage’s curtains once again moved. Jing Wan opened her eyes, seeing the Sun Yi Lin that reappeared. His face didn’t have that strange movement anymore, just the ‘scar’ right now, compared to before, increased by at least ten percent.
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This is unbearable… SYL 😭
Jen, thanks for translating! You are a gem.
SYL the incel? I wouldn’t believe it if you warned me from the start.
I did not see this coming! I am shooketh
I also didn’t imagine that Sun Yi Lin will one day commit physical harassment crimes.
Yes, I know physical harassment can be just be an unwillingly held hand…
It just sounds like “nothing” today, but it was considered more than just “nothing” back then.
It makes me think about how a revealed ankle was considered indecent exposure back in the olden days. 🤣
To Jin-sensei, thank you for this heartrendingly dramatic and politically powered CNovel. Your time and effort has been greatly appreciated.